Dreamer's land

2012-02-13T00:40:00.002+08:00

God know when the time is right. If God send you someone you hate in your life today. He has his reasons in doing so. When I needed to talk to someone. He bring someone to me and allow me to share things and thats all I needed. But the even better thing is he was bless by some of the things that I shared. God didn't make things happen in our life for nothing. He make things happen to turn things around for His glory. So from a bad thing, it is now a good thing because it has turn around.

God gave us a mouth to speak. Speak good things positive things. God gave us a mouth to confess His goodness. He gave us a mouth to speak to others. He gave us a mouth so that we can bless others through what God has already bless us with. God is a God of unpredictable. But thats what makes our life so colorful. If life was predictable then how boring would it have been. So praise the Lord that he made life that way. Stop complaining about how sucky your life is... While you were wasting your time complaining, someone has taken over the role that God has given you because you keep complaining and never listen to what he gotta say. Start looking at the bright side. Keep looking at the positive. If we want God to bless us with something big, we have to first take delight in the little things that God has entrust with us. Only then will he know that he can entrust you with bigger things.

2012-02-07T01:55:00.003+08:00

Been so tired recently... I could only move around because I force myself to keep going... I feel so lethargic on my legs and hands but thats fine coz I know I really gotta keep going until the holiday arrives. :)

Anyway I really hope I can find a work to do over the holiday. For all my life, I have never gone working during the holidays and I felt maybe this time round, I should break this cycle. No point staying at home all day enjoying life, lazing around. It is time to get out there and see more, it is time to experience working life. Even if it is just for 2 weeks, 3 weeks, 4 weeks... It doesn't matter because at least I can take something out of it and bring it along in my life. Also, I don't want to keep depending on my parents. I feel they have given me so much. I haven't return them much. I felt all I had done was to bring disappointment to them in my life. Especially my dad... I have one of the best father in my life. He may not be perfect but he is an awesome dad. He had done so much for me. I love my family. :)

I really want to thank God for what he has done in my life. When I thought to myself how much I hate art and how not creative I am. He brought me to somewhere where I needed to use my creativity. Somewhere where I need to do a lot of art and art appreciation. As time go by, I realized I do not hate art and in fact, I love it. Also, I realized I am creative and the only reason why I have not been able to tap into my creativity happens to be my self-denial of it's existence.

Had it not been for God, I would have hated my family. I always think of them as unloving people always showing bias towards my brother because he is so talented. But ever since I met God, he brought Love into my life. He show me what love is like and the many form of how it is express. I never realized how fortunate I am. Had I not met God, I would still be a rebellious person in my household. Had I not met God, I would have been such a bitter person. Had I not met God, I would have to go through the pain through my memory of my long gone grandfather alone, for I love him so much and he left so early in my life. Had I not met God, where would I be today? I would not imagine a person who had absolutely lost love and compassion and still finding his purpose in life. Because thats a really sad life to live.

2012-02-05T00:54:00.002+08:00

The world is going really fast and we're also going fast just to keep up with the pace. But even though we have to keep pace, sometimes it is better to stop for a moment and take a step back and look where we are heading. If not, we might head in the wrong direction without knowing it. In the Bible, Matthew 7:14 it said, "But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it."

So lets not head in the wrong direction. You are the driver and not the world. The world do not control our pace or direction but you do.

I learn so much from the message that I heard yesterday and today. I learn that I should stop hiding some of my talents and start using them to shine for God. I want to achieve my purpose in life and without people it can never be achieve because humans are design for relationship with people. All I want to do is to bless others with what I have. The world is not only about me.

2012-01-18T00:44:00.002+08:00

My blog has been dead for sometime but I think it is time to start writing again. Due to business in life I have left it dead for some time but now am back. :)

From the time the blog was dead until now I have gone through trials one after another. I feel exhausted yet in Him I am restored. I may feel tired but yet when I cry out to Him I have the strength to push on. Standing in a battlefield for so long... I feel tired but I know if I don't keep fighting, I will never reclaim the lands that were stolen from me. When I first gave my life to Him, I wasn't serious enough and after some time when I came into realization of what is happening in my life, it was already in a bad condition. My only hope is in fighting back for those lands that were stolen and also cleaning up the mess I created in the lands I already had. I have no one to blame but myself. But I know through Him, I can do all things.

In the battlefield, I fought and I know if I keep on going on, one day I will see restoration in things I have lost or mess up... I also know that I will definitely see more than restoration. I will never give Him up in my life or so thats what I believe and pray for :)

2011-10-05T02:12:00.003+08:00

The start of October have been going well :) but I know it can go much better actually :) well 12 more days to the start of school so time to start pushing myself with my studies. Been rather slack on it but time to show some sense of urgency in my life. Rather then always being the slow and calm person... I think some sense of urgency is really needed to do better in my life. My walk with God has been going better this month. It is a new start but let it get better than ever. Let it keep going. I miss my quiet time yesterday but today shall start doing it daily. It is only the beginning of the greater things to come, I am certain of it.

This month shall be a month where I will achieve a lot more and try to change all the wrong I am still doing. Have ask for forgiveness and gave my word for repentance but never happen. Thats why let this month be a month where I will really repent on the wrong things and change for the better. Let this month be a month I grow deeper in love with God. Let this month be a month where I do better than before in my studies. Let this month be the beginning of the greater things to come in my life. :) I shall put my faith in God for that. :) Whatever ups and downs I experience, shall always remember God and praise him regardless which point of my life I am in. The downs shall grow my character and prepare what I truly need for the ups, then let the ups come when I am ready and let it be so great even I cannot imagine. :)

2011-10-01T12:23:00.002+08:00

Here comes October :) well since this is a new month let me start off this new month well. I have been sleeping through out the whole of september, it is time to start with my studying before the school starts again and settle some stuff which have to be done before the holiday ends. Hopefully, I can do well for next semester and really bring a new image for myself. Time to love everyone whether or not I feel they deserve it. Time to change my lazy self to at least a little hardworking. Time to change my image totally so that no one can knows who I am until I said my name. Time to get a hair cut soon too. It is way too long...

2011-09-30T02:53:00.001+08:00

Today I made a lot of mistake when it comes to birthday celebration. But I am glad the birthday girl still enjoyed it. She thank me still and I am glad she appreciates it. But am still very very sorry for the screw up in between. Some she know of and some she don't.(lucky me :D ) Today, somehow I just felt like helping out in birthday celebration. Stupid perfectionist side of me... It just make me not do so many things because I can never get it perfect. Not perfect, not happy... But it is time to start learning to instead of give up, keep trying and giving my all to all I do. Instead of give up because I screwed up, learn from my mistake and do a better job next time. But I still love the perfectionist side of me, since it makes me give my best when necessary :) so it isn't so bad after all =D I also want to thank God for showing me so many things :) and bringing some motivation into my life =D oh and before I forget good bye September and hello October =D

2011-09-26T03:03:00.000+08:00

1. Corinthians 13:4
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

This verse I am slowly understanding it as I go through life. Never got to understand how until recently. Thank God for bringing people who could show me how to display love in those aspect. I have been trying to change myself. Today he even showed me how much I needed him once again. I prayed on the bus. Amazingly, when I wanted to have quiet time with God on the bus, he made sure no one board the bus... Just Him and me, drinking tea on the bus catching up with each other. When I alight from the bus, since it was a double-decker bus, the 2nd deck which I was in had no one... Went down and found the bus just the bus driver, Him and me. I am so glad God did so much just for me. He knew just what I wanted.

He really show me so many things today, Lord truly I am bless today. There are negative to today but I feel that I am truly bless by the positive. I should not give up and keep on keeping on. Through today I learn that, God is still holding on to the things I prayed for. He still wants to give it to me, he showed it to me today and I finally know what it meant by God never forgets what we ask for and he always wants to give it to us. To those out there who have ask God for something before, he had never forgotten about it and he wants to fulfill it. Sometimes we lost patience on the way while waiting for Him to finish His decoration over the gift he wants to hand to us. But I tell you, wait for it for he might not just give you that 1 gift, he might give you more than what you ask, beyond what you expected so stay excited for the gift and be ready to receive it when it comes :)

Sorry for the long post but read it only if you want

Oh and for those who are following this blog. I have to say that the updating on this blog is not regular since I will only post when I remember to post which so happens that I always forgot I did not post on the blog haha XD

2011-09-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

One day, I want to do bass cover on youtube... Well gotta start practicing my bass guitar... I just realized something new about myself again. That is, when I am really serious about something, I will pursue it seriously and will not give up even after failure. There are so many things I want to do in life but 1 thing at a time I guess. I wish I can achieve at least three quarter of them, it is possible and I will keep pressing on and on till the end.

Lord, I am once again sorry for my actions today. You have been a great help in my life and I give you my word that I will make sure it will not happen again. Time I wake up from my rest and start going for it I guess XD I am sorry about it Lord. I will make sure I obey. Let my life be Godly!!!!!

2011-09-14T05:24:00.000+08:00

I really want to thank God for what he has done... He send someone who really made me realized what was truly wrong with my thinking... For so many years I thought I was right, but few weeks ago... That someone said something that made me realized, it wasn't right... I thank God for sending her into my life. Though I have a lot of troubles recently but God knows me and have already prepared things for me to keep me from going crazy from thinking too much... Really thank God for this!!!!!

2011-09-02T16:25:00.000+08:00

Sitting there and watching a terrible transformation of things... Being helpless totally unable to do a thing... Today finding out something big happen which is the end product of that transformation. It sucks when you know that when the end product comes as you know it is wrong... Very wrong... The person will find it hard to turn back... But I have to face the fact... But I won't give up... I will turn that around together with someone whom I know I can trust regardless of what happens he will stay with me. I don't care if I get hurt... Lose myself in the process but if it helps someone turn away from there... I will do it. This was not suppose to be the end of the game. It is only the beginning. So you evil things better be afraid for I am going to tear your foundation down and bring all your work crumbling down that good may come into that person.

2011-08-29T23:20:00.001+08:00

I want to bring positivity back into my life... Recently... I keep having negative thoughts about myself... Thus lowering my self-esteem... This isn't good but there is no turning back... This can only means, lets look forward and not at our rear-view mirror when I am driving my life... Let my past not plague me. :) I realized though I always put God as my first priority in my life, but I was slowly drifting away from him for the past half a year... But all that is going to change... I will not drift away any further.

It is said in Matthew 15:25-27(NIV)

25 : The woman came and knelt before him. "Lord, help me!" she said.

26 : He replied, "It is not right to take the children's bread and toss it to their dogs."

27 : "Yes, Lord," she said, "but even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their masters' table."

Lord even though I may have drift away further from you. But I will want to come back to you and serve you for after 2 years I finally realized that it is you who brightens up my life. For the past 2 years I have not been living the way I should be, ended up my life kind of darkens but each time you came back into my life, it just brightens up my life. I will never leave you!!! Not even death shall seperate us Lord!!! I love you and thank you for what you did for me =D though my mind is in a huge confusion right now but I still feel the peace in me and I know it is from you.

Praise the Lord, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name.(Psalm 103:1)

Life in code...

2011-08-07T02:57:00.000+08:00

Coding been crazy... Been killing me... Always giving me stupid errors... I really do not know why... I realized back when I am in year 1 I should have work harder on building my coding foundation... I wish I could turn the time back... Yet I do not wish to turn the time back... I have someone in mind that I like... Of course God will still be my first priority but I have done so much to chase after her... I didn't even I know I would... I have never met anyone whom I actually chase after to get the person this much. Oh well... I can say I am going crazy... I know God is irreplaceable in my heart... He will always be number 1. No matter how I show it, be it weakly or negligent... All I can say is, he is my number 1. :D

Many stuff on my working queue

2010-11-22T02:26:00.000+08:00

There are many stuff I gotta to work on. I just hope I can cope and the most I can do is believe in my Heavenly Father that he will provide me with strength to keep pressing on. That he will protect me when I need protection. That he will stay with me for I hate being alone. That he will guide me on for I tend to do things that are not right. That he will save me when I am in my worst of time. That he will deliver me from evil.

Father, please guide me. I dun want to be a powerless Christian but rather I want to be one that shake the world. I dun want to be a person with no vision so guide me to a cliff in my path where I shall sit with you and you will show me visions then guide me on as I walk in a direction I know where miracles happens. Where people's life will be change by you and me. I dun want to be a person who is so lazy for I want to work hard for whatever I want so take me away from laziness. I dun want to be easily tempted by things which will lead me away from the path you want me to walk for a while but rather I want to live a life where I shall move with the Holy Spirit. Let me be a person who will shake this world. That I shall bring light wherever I go and destroy the devil's control over people. That they shall be free from the devil. No matter what the devil will put me through, God will cover me when I need it, God will deliver me when the time is right and God will turn the whole situation around and make it into something that will glorify him. Lord put words into my mouth that wherever I go Lord that I shall preach the Gospel whenever needed. That I shall bring the truth to as many people as I can.

God that I shall say to you this one thing. As long as I live I shall bring truth to whoever I can bring it to and that they shall know that you are God!!! You are the only hope I cling onto. So Lord hear my cry to you. I may be tired. But by your grace I shall have strength and energy to keep moving on regardless of my condition. I shall not stop moving forward in my walk with You.

Praise the Lord

2010-10-11T03:15:00.000+08:00

My life have seems to be going downhill when it comes to academic. However, today I went to check my GPA... I expected something below 1.5 but praise the Lord, I got 1.92. Though I miss the final presentation for my project, I still got a 1.92 GPA. God is really good all the time. And I went to check my result and I thought to myself when I saw the results... Though no As, but still...

Praise the Lord!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got no E. I got 1 B 2 D and the rest is C or C+. Praise the Lord.

Whenever you feel down, don't let it keep holding on to that sadness or sorrow. But rather, choose to let it go. Holding on to it will only add on to your misery, and so whats the point on adding on to your misery when you never want to. So stop thinking about the bad stuff... Whenever negative thoughts come into your mind, you have to question that thought so that you know what is healthy for you and what is not.

2010-09-17T12:01:00.000+08:00

As I was listening to the song Like Incense by Hillsongs, I realized I want to blog about something. At the last part of the song, it goes like this :

I will seek you in the morning
And I will look to walk in yours ways
And step by step you lead me
And I will follow you all of my days

This part of the song tells of why Christian are never afraid to take a step of faith. Also if you're a fellow Christian, today is the day you step up in faith. Stop looking to the other guy and say, hey why not you go ahead. I will be right behind you then even after he walk you stay there unable to take a step. Maybe you pray that you will take that step everyday. You will use this verse in the Bible that said:

Ask and it shall be given, seek and you will find it, knock and the door will be open to it.

Yes, your did the first step by asking God, but you have yet to seek and find and knock on that door. For that is the next step and it is just taking 1 step into somewhere God lead you. Do not be afraid. Do not look back. Do not think you cannot do it. God is always there. He will protect you. He will cover you when you fall. He will be there to comfort you when you are feeling depress or sad. He will be there to encourage you as you are feeling really discourage. He will always be there. God wants to hear you say, "I can do it!!! And I will do it for You!!!" He will smile and when you execute it, He will carry on smiling. As the song says, He will lead us step by step. So don't think God will throw you into a road to walk without guiding you. He is always there to keep us on track. Also he is always there holding your hand like a Father holding His sons and daughters hands and walk that road.

2010-09-12T22:11:00.001+08:00

It would be good if a person could share whatever problem in life with someone he trust. So it is important that within our life we can find someone whom we can trust. :D

If you lack of that in your life, when your anger, hatred, frustration grows within you and there is no where to release it, you will surely change into a really bitter person. It is important we make friends, but just making friends is not the important thing. Making friends you can trust like your own family can really help. For some people they would rather confide in thier parents, then confide in your parents. You must always have someone in your life who can listen to your problems. It will be really great if your friend can listen and also help you with your problem. That they will cry with you. Laugh with you. Go through it with you. I am not talking about having girlfriend or what. I am talking about having a friend who is not related by blood but seems to be related by blood and probably even thicker.

I have found that person in my life. So my question to those reading is. Have you found yours?

Pride...

2010-09-12T14:10:00.000+08:00

Today I am writing about pride because something happen yesterday... That spur me to write this. Pride is something all humans have. It is okay to have it but not too much of it. Don't fill yourself with pride but rather be humble and not prideful. Too much pride kills a person... Too little pride brings down a person self esteem. So you should have just exactly the middle, where you have not too much nor too little :)

My life when I was in my secondary school days b4 I got to know Him was really... I was too full of pride. Somehow I think I am never ever ever ever ever ever wrong... But I was wrong. When I think back, I just keep laughing at myself. Don't ever say that you will solve this problem your own way, because I tried it and it turn out to be a disater sometimes. Seb, if you're reading this blog, I wanted to tell you this. I know you don't care the outcome of what you want to do. I know why... I was like you, foolish enough to do it my own way with the same problem as yours and ended up creating an even bigger mess. I know you don't believe in God but seriously your theory of it is all our mentality and stuff like that... It was my theory of why there is no God in this world before I even went to church... But when I went to church, I was wrong. Seb I pray that one day, you will realize how much God loves you and the rest of the way. God works in his own way and not yours... So don't expect him to always work things your way.

What you believe in

2010-09-08T01:45:00.000+08:00

THE IMPORTANCE OF TAKING NOTE OF WHAT WE BELIEVE!!!

Is know what we believe in important? Well, it matters a great deal.

If you believe that this world has got no God and you have reasons to support it. It can only means you believe your reason is the evidence that there is no God in this world.

For many people in this world, it is the thier belief that really form what they see and what they can achieve. There was once, a group of scientist did a research by bringing 2 people into a slanted room and before they went in, they had this assumption that the room was straight, but it isn't. Both of them went in and play with a ball by passing it to one another in the room. They felt that the floor was actually straight, when it wasn't.

Sometimes we say to God, "Father, we need a miracle!!!" but somewhere in our hearts, we couldn't believe it could ever happen. So God could never work the miracle when he actually wanted to work a miracle to turn the situation around :( you got to believe in it too. We got to think about it happening, believe it is going to happen, visualising that it actually happen and also confessing it. Notice that within that previous sentence there is the word 'believe'. This was what Rev Dr Yonggi Cho said.

Believe is such a powerful thing :D So let us believe in God's promises and cling on to it :D for God's promise will surely happen. It is just whether you have the patience to wait for it to happen sometimes. Also His promise will never vanish. It will be there forever and it will be as He promise. :D

I love you Almighty Father

2010-09-07T00:50:00.000+08:00

Life have been going awesome for me though my life keeps going up and then down. My Father in Heaven really watch over me :D

Now I think back on what happen in the past... I have encountered few near death situation but God alerted me and so here I am right now forever his :)

Nothing can take me away from Him :D for he is there watching over me. Death has no say in my relationship with Him.

For so many years, I was crying over the biggest pain and my biggest loss in my life :O
But now I am finally delivered from that pain. The pain can still be felt but at least I know I have someone who can protect me like that someone whom I had lost :)

So here I am to share my testimony about this awesome thing that God have done for me.

I had a grandfather that I love so much... But I never knew I did... Not until 10 mins before his death:(
During school holiday, every single weekday when my parents are busy and unable to get me breakfast, my grandfather would and guess what... He is already 90+ years old yet he bother to walk down to that coffee shop 15 mins walk from my house to buy my favorite noodle back home for me to eat.
When my father wants to cane me, he will let my father cane me 3 times and if my father tries the 4th time, my grandfather will walk over and stop him and scold my father... In fact if he knows that the reason my father wants to cane me is unreasonable, he will not even let my father cane me. He love me like his son...
If I refuse to eat my breakfast, he will do whatever he can to make me eat. Even so I shouted at him... Never did I see the love behind it from my grandfather...
When I was primary 1 till was primary 3, I took school bus to school and back home... Whenever I run too far from my grandfather while he is fetching me back home, he would pull me back to him and... Scold me... Then I will scold him back and when my friend heard that... He told me to treasure my grandfather... I never bothered about it and never understand it... Not until when I was sec 2 on one of the day on september just right after my last paper for term 3 common test... I went home hoping to play computer games but after I on my computer... The moment I did that... My mother called me to go to the hospital with her to see my grandfather... Due to my exams I was kept in the dark about his condition... I went there... Didn't want to shed any tears and all I had is to touch him one last time b4 he died... Only got 10 mins to see him...
Thats all... The one who was like a father to me... Died in front of me... On a day I thought was one my happier day of the year... I cry for few days and nights and finally stop crying... I thought the pain is gone... But when I think of him... I cannot stop crying...

I want to thank God that he brought me into my family and so had such an awesome grandfather.
I want to thank God that at least I had that 10mins.
I want to thank God that at least he is there to comfort me when I need it.
I want to thank God that he came into my life to be a Father to me and yes I love you Jesus!!!! Thank you for dying for me!!! For all my sins!!!! I shall live to bring glory to your Name!!!

So right now, one of my item on my to-do-list is...

Getting over this hurt in life :) I hope it will be soon.

CosFest 2010!!!!

2010-07-05T01:25:00.000+08:00

Went to CosFest today and well I compare what I see today to the photos of saturday cosfest... I have to say... Sunday one is better. Well I manage to take photo with Fang(I will upload the photo when my friend send to me) after waiting for er... 15mins... Well I guess I was really lucky. My friend manage to get a shot of a group of cosplayers cosplaying as letter bee!!! Well thats my favourite anime so I guess really lucky to get so many of them there while for the saturday cosfest... They ain't there.

Anyway, after the cosfest. Now it is time to study but... I think I caught a cosfest fever... Still wanting to go again but too bad... No more... Hope I can go for the other 2 cosplaying event coming up at the end of the year. Usually exactly when I want to go... Always need go malaysia so I guess I will have to inform my parents early bout the date so that they dun plan on the day of the cosplay. My CCA in NYP is still "go home club"... Hope to get one soon... In fact I think I will get one soon.

2010-05-31T23:13:00.000+08:00

I tell you life have been real great. Though there have been so many things happening in life, but life is still dam great. Who can say life sux when so many good things happen in spite of bad things. The only reason why people say life sux is because they overlook things. They miss out what is good in life. Be thankful for whatever goodness in your life. Once you do that, you will not miss out the goodness in your life.

I know I have not been blogging for a while now. Bet some people are starting to complain or start to get bored that this blog is only updated once in a while but do understand that I not so free to everyday spend time blogging. Though I love writing but doesn't means I have to blog daily. Could spend that time catching up on my school work so why not just study rather then waste it on blogging.

Anyway just wanna say other then AC 2010 is fantastic I have more stuff to say but I shall leave it to other days :D

2010-05-21T02:06:00.000+08:00

Learning C++, HTML, CSS... Really... Really tough time I have with programming. But once you learn it, it will be super fun. Well 'super' is not good enough. I think I should say it will be uber fun... But for now I am struggling still but gonna buy reference book for C++ by this week. For HTML and CSS, I starting to get a grasp of it.

Photoshop is really tough to grasp still need some practising and I believe when I am done with practicising, experimenting and learning... I will be able to do great images. I plan to develop game as soon as possible. I dun know why but got this, "I want to develop a game soon so badly!!!" attitude. Those who are still 'O' levels and reading this blog. Just a word of advice... If you say JC stress, poly slack, I would like to say some words that will make you say the big picture. JC got it's own kind of stress and poly also got thier own kind of stress. Dun think poly you can just play all the way. Thats not how you can make it through poly with a good GPA to get to university. Also please study for your 'O' level dun like me slack until last one month. But dun stress yourself so hard until you want to cry also.

To those in poly who are reading these post... I have been hearing lots of complain bout stress... I just want to say guys!!! Endure through the pain for term break is coming. Jia You!!!!

2010-05-16T11:23:00.000+08:00

Now I think I have to thank him for the service when Dr Robin minister to me. I have to say, he did it just at the time I needed. Although, my pain was minister by jacob, I was still not free of it. But I want to thank jacob for ministering to my pain. If God had not brought him in my life, I would have been crying at home all alone for long hours. It is amazing as God manage to free me from that pain that has send me on the quest for love. I was freed from it. God really does answer prayer. He send me someone to free me from the pain. He pave my future in such a way he really remove the pain in my lfie step by step.

It is said in the bible in Matthew 7:7,

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

This verse is really as it said. Ask and it shall be given to you. Seek for it and you will find the door to it. Knock on the door and the door be open for you. Even if yours prayers were not answered, dun think he neglected you or no longer treat you as his child. It is because, God has his own timetable just like you and I do. He has seen the future and thus he knows that his timetable will definitely be the best for you. For which father would give his own children fish bone when ask for a fish.

2010-05-12T23:36:00.000+08:00

I think people cannot change overnight. For most of the people I have seen, never seen one that change overnight but have seen one that change overtime. In changing, there is a process to go through in life. But going through changes = transition. So before a people can change, he/she has to go through a transition stage which most people could not even complete and they just give up. Thus, even when the person says he/she is going to change, he/she may not change at all for they do not have to will to carry on walking while in the transition stage.

So during the transition stage there will come a point where you have to make a decision, there will be a wall blocking that exit out of transition to finally change. But whether you are willing to break down that wall slowly or just walk away from that wall, it is your decision. But sometimes halfway through, you may already give up and say, "this is impossible." But it is said in the Bible, "I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me"

Philippians 4:13

But if you perservere and be patient, when you reach the end, you will surely change. Patience is such a powerful thing. If you can be patient till the end, you will be rewarded.

2010-05-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

I have been getting more and more worries in my life... Not like I want to purposely worry bout something bout you know there have been more and more bad things happening in my life... Well, as long as I am living on Earth bad things can happen anytime.

I will put my trust in him to help with those worries I have. He has taught me not to worry too much in life and that I should trust him with my worries so I guess I am doing that now. Why worry when according to some report 96% of the things that we worry about in life are things we cannot do anything about while the remaining 4% are things which we can do something about. So for those worries where we can solve it, just face it and stop running away but for the 96%, if you keep worrying about them, it is almost endless. Therefore I trust him with my worries. My advice to you is, stop worrying!!! It will make life a lot more comfortable.

How can I prove to you that worry is not something we should practice? It is written in the bible Matthew 6:25-34.25."Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[a]?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
This tells us that we should not worry in our daily life but trust in him for our worries and whatever we need.

2010-05-09T13:56:00.000+08:00

Somethings have been bothering me these few days but I didn't really bother about them since it was not much of a problem. I want to take this chance to thank God for what he put into my life. He gave me many tasks to handle at one go. In the past, I never think of time management as something that important but now with the amount of task he give to me, I finally see the importance of time management. So I really want to thank him.

He brought people in my life, and they showed me to my weaknesses and also which one I should start working on first since it is getting worst. I manage to become more decision than b4 and I believe this is a good thing.

Yesterday was Jacob's birthday and I really hope he had enjoyed his time :)for it is a really well planned birthday though some stuff did not come out well but still will be an enjoyable birthday.

I miss going back to malaysia... And also the foods in malaysia for they are so...Yummy!!!!

Alright time to get serious. When you say you will do it, you have to do it. For it is said in the bible.

Matthew 5:37
Simply let your 'yes' be 'yes', and your 'No,' 'no';anything beyond this comes from the eveil one.

Thus, I believe another of the meaning other no swearing in this verse is actually when you say yes to it. You have to finish it. So do not say yes and last minute say no. It spoils the planning of others so please spare a thought for them.

2010-05-04T21:43:00.001+08:00

I love my class DET 1003 :)

They are a bunch of really great people , in comparison to other class in my course I cannot imagine not being the class I am in now. Class in poly really makes a difference when you are in a poly. A good class where you will enjoy being in can actually boost your morale. However there is also another group of people in my life that I really enjoy being with. They are E412 :) I can never forget about them for they play an important role in really moulding my life into a whole new change.

People in your everyday life play an important role in your life. They can change who you are... Your personality also will change according to the people around you. But ultimately you will not change unless you make a decision to change. So beware of changing for the worst. Anyway to those who read my blog... Hope you enjoy and not get angry with me stating all these kind of stuff.

2010-05-03T22:04:00.000+08:00

Life have been busy for me, staring at my computer for almost 24 hours a day and hopefully my degree will drop or remain constant rather than increase... Very worried for my eyes... But oh well... That is what I have to do in the course I am in anyway, theres no running away from it. If there are anyone who says I am having such a good life since I am able to stare at the computer so many hours a day, I suggest you think again... The homework I am given is really tough so that means it can really get you frustrated.

Anyway, I am so glad that I enjoy programming... If not I would have decided to change course by now... Anyway what I have to say is... Please enjoy life to your fullest even as you study... Course that may be tough,that maybe time consuming, doesn't means you become some no life person...

2010-05-02T22:32:00.000+08:00

I am so tired right now almost falling asleep and I still want to finish my assignments... Some people may say I am just stressing myself out... Some people may just say go and get some rest... But I dun know why but there is this urge to finish up my assignments...

But anyway in life we make our choices... Dun care what others say about say just do what is right... Even if you are really scare of getting under fire from critics, do not go against your principle. Would you rather go against your principles? But however having said this sometimes it is also good to go against your principle if you know that it a good thing to go against it.

2010-05-02T03:55:00.000+08:00

Today I want to pose a few questions to you. It sounds simple but it is really tough to answer it.

Well, all you need to do is simply ask yourself. Have I found what I want to do in life? Am I very sure that I will like doing it? Will I get bored of it?

If you say yes to the first 2 question and no to the last question... Then I suggest your start visualizing yourself doing it if you haven't start visualizing it. You nvr know whether you really like it until you see yourself doing it...

Haiz... Enough of question. Basically today was a great day, I know it was. In fact great is not enough to explain it all. Did project in the afternoon but I ended up coloring only 2 of the penguin's hands but nvm... I will be settling the painting. For service today, it has a really great atmosphere today, really wish that atmosphere would be the same every week but well that is kind of demanding. :)

Anyway fellowship today is good and it feels like the cell group unity is slowly growing back... But Rick... Why you miss the service today? Was such a wonderful service and in fact I wanted to have a talk with you... Oh well life is unpredictable so I will just let it flow.

One important thing in life you must know... Keep moving forward, no matter what really happen in your life, just keep moving forward and never stop to look back... What past is past, the moment you look back, you risk yourself falling into a trap set by yourself.

2010-04-29T21:33:00.000+08:00

Things in my course just keep getting more and more fun. Today I learn bout X-html coding. Yipee!!!

Programming is so fun I can't believe so many people will hate it when I see how fun it can get. Never mind the complicated code but it is really very fun. I hope to do well in this course and get to a GPA of 3.5 at the end of my first year. Really hope to get it. I really want to do well in this course and be able to get to go for the oversea study trip to Tokyo. My dream to go to Japan can finally be fulfiled.

2010-04-29T00:47:00.000+08:00

Body still aching and my mother is demanding me to stay at home tomorow which means... I am gonna miss my dragonboat training... I so wanted to go and my mother is forcing me to quit the CCA... No matter what I say she will still ask me to quit dragonboat.

Anyway I hope by tomorow my aches will all be gone. So looking forward to my course everyday lesson. Seems very fun. :)

I really want to thank God for putting me into this course, I want to thank him for showing me what programming is like and help me realize I really like programming.

Dragonboat training...

2010-04-28T01:47:00.000+08:00

Ache all over... All it takes is one training to coz ache all over your body. Every muscle on your hand and leg will ache to the extend you only want to go to sleep on your bed. Anyway, it was really fun.

I am glad to be helping Jacob with many things... I dun need regconition from my cell group... But I feel that the unity in the cell group needs to be build back up again... Am doing my best in really focusing on rebuilding the unity...

Luckily for me,I am really enjoying programming... Kinda find it stupid when I got so scared of programming when all the people keep telling me how tough it is... To everyone who reads this, I just wanna tell you all... You never know if you like something until you try it. Just like how I like programming after trying out.

I am still waiting for a day... But it is still quite a long way but I will wait. No matter how tough it may be I will wait. I do not care for the outcome of that day but ultimately, I want to get the truth.

Fever....

2010-01-05T20:45:00.000+08:00

I have been sick for the past few days... Really dam sian at home... How I wish I can just go out of my house... But me already recovered today so I guess tomorow I can go out already.... But tomorow... No one is going out so I guess I hafta wait till Thursday... Stupid fever sabo me miss the Overnight PM...

Today is gonna be a hectic day

2009-12-23T01:28:00.001+08:00

Well as I suggest... Today is gonna b really busy for me since I will b out of my house shopping for some stuff. I only got so little money but nvm. I believe I can still get some decent gifts at least. Anyway... Tomorow is Christmas eve and I will be going to the Christmas service. And I am so looking forward to that service. Especially the drama. I definitely will not want to miss the drama. Also I will be rather excited since I believe that many new friends will surely b there.

Candlelight service and Thanksgiving service :)

2009-12-21T11:47:00.000+08:00

Forgot to post bout Saturday and Sunday services... But here I am :)

Well, the candlelight service is one of the most beautiful thing I saw in me life. When everyone held the lighted candle across the whole expo hall8 if was really a beautiful sight. Sadly it lasted for only 10 minutes but still it is great :) I am also proud to have new brothers joining in :)

The thanksgiving service on Sunday. Super great. It was really fun and I was so engross in the service I nvr even bother to look at the time... Did not even realize pastor Kong has drag the service 1 hour longing. But the 1 hour extra was worth it :)

The service ended and thats when I realize... It was already 11.10pm... And I have to catch the last train... Anyway fantastic services fill the whole of my weekend.

New Moon?

2009-12-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

The movie new moon was so freaking fantastic I almost went to sleep... I could have just watch any love story show to find the scenes in the show I guess... The plot is also just like any love story.

Anyway I dun want to bother bout new moon... My next movie I wanna watch would b avatar... I dun see anymore movie worth watching... Or maybe there is but I am just lazy to do some research on them 0.O

Tomorow meh will b playing basketball with my friends and I am definitely looking forward to that... Been months since I last played basketball with them.

Also looking forward to the fleefly picnic!!!! on Friday!!!!!

Cycling :)

2009-12-13T22:14:00.000+08:00

Today was a great day though part of it was rather frustrating but I still think that it is a great day in overall.

I hafta say that I think all those who went cycling together with me at East Coast Park today, they all sort of wasted $6 today. Well I really cannot believe I wasted the money too... But nvm at least we had time to get together at mac later and chat.

And later... When I was going home... I thought I was going to get lost... Lucky I believe in my every step I took if not... Happy new year to me and I will be lost in Marine parade

Blog back in action

2009-12-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

I know my blog have been dead but it was 'O' level this year so I cannot post very much.

On 7-9 dec I had a very great time at the WOW Camp!!!!!

It was really fun. I enjoyed my time at the camp and I think this is the first time in my life that I had so much fun in a camp, especially when the campsite is somewhere super wu lu.

Anyway, I really hope everyone who went for the camp had a great time. I also would like to thanks those who organised the camp and most importantly thank Jacob for being such a good group leader. Even when our group is the smallest group and had only 7 people, he still believe in us and believe we can do it :)

But sadly... I accidently slept early for the second night... Zao zi dao I already go have fun with the rest and not sleep so early...

After I came back from camp. I felt so happy I went for the camp. Sian... I gonna miss the christmas service... But I guess I just have to believe I can still go for christmas service. I believe God has a solution for me.

Thank you God for changing my life so much in 9 months :)

Want to watch Mix Pin???

2008-10-25T19:38:00.000+08:00

On 23rd October(Thursday),I had a lot of fun with Tommy,Wee Ta,Ken,Mark,Derric and Chee Kin.We went to GV in PS to watch Max Payne.At first we planned to watch 20th Century Boys but it screwed up at last minute so we watch Max Payne instead.

Max Payne is like shit.the SWAT team in the movie all blind want use machine gun lose to pistol.I think Mark is million times better than the SWAT team in the movie.Mark at least know how to use machine gun to kill people in CS not like the "SWAT" team.

Be away due to D-Day

2008-10-01T10:57:00.000+08:00

Crap man I have not come to this blog due to D-Day(exam).Even if I could too little time to do something.I am gonna miss you my blog.Yesterday Nicholas and me had a lot of fun playing dota,so much fun.We own the dota AI butt.Also yesterday I had quite a lot of fun arguing with Han Lin.Lol!!!!!!!!!

Dammit I am gonna miss this blog.

Yesterday game

2008-09-20T18:55:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I play final fantasy epic RPG(WC3) with Yi Khoon.Wah scary sia we play until we forget see the time.we started from 10.30pm and we play and fun until when I see the again I suddenly shout "WTF!!!!!!!!!!!! 2am liao ar" then wake my father up and end up getting a hell of a scolding lol.But I think it was worth the scolding so it does not bother me.Sian really wanna dota with Nicholas again.

Joshua's birthday

2008-09-03T21:37:00.000+08:00

I very excited sia on Friday Joshua birthday seh.I really wanna give him birthday bash.Today play dota dam fun sia.Templar assasin can own 2 game and also I use Crystal maiden win 1 game.Yay great accomplishment.After that play battleship kena thrash by other ppl..........Nvm it is just a game.

Happy capella day

2008-08-29T23:37:00.000+08:00

Yesterday in I play Cabalsea and on Mars we celebrated happy Capella day.We finally won the nation war that we didn't manage to win till now.I am so happy that capella finally my whole guild celebrated our victory.Anyway never mind about Cabal.

Wah today sports fiesta is like 3E2 didn't manage to win the floorball.I was so unhappy but anyway we cannot expect to win every event what so lose then lose lah no prob at all.Just need to take things easy can liao.School today also release so late and I was freaking angry with that.Coz when I go back primary school I was the last among all my primary school friends to reach there.Wah then somemore today rain after we go visit teacher if not we maybe would have gone to play basketball.

Ben's Birthday

2008-08-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was Ben's birthday.It was so freaking fun.We went to East Coast park chalet there and when we reach the chalet Ben still at Macdonald eating together with Wei Fang.So end up we stuck outside waiting for him for 15 min.But that doesn't matter coz after that it is so fun.We all play PSP hardcore sia and not just that we keep on tau pok ppl.We all scam Lester when he in the room.He thought we want tau pok Ben end up about 6 ppl go pull him down and tau pok him super hardcore

Then after that we went to hunt down Han Lin.Lester,Darren,Wei Zhen went to carry him up wah he struggle until so violent when we caryy him until he kik lester lol to the room and we all tau pok him.After that I suay suay kena lester push me down end up I also kena tau pok like mad.At first nobody wanna tau pok me only Lester tau pok me.End up Teck Yeow suddenly fly down and tau pok then everyone end up tau pok me and Darren accidentally kik my face lol.After that Lester told me my "bush" messy le.

Lol it was a great day.I wanna thaks my friend for giving me such an enjoyable time yesterday.Thank you to you all.

3E2 forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

School is great today

2008-08-18T20:48:00.000+08:00

Wah today school dam shoik loh.Mr Toh no come lucky no get back A-maths paper if not see already may end up crying.Today also no get back SS and geog paper if not see already want to cry even more.How I wish the teacher lost the paper so that I dun need see my marks for the common test and wun kena scolding by my parents liao.

Busy to the extreme!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-17T23:35:00.000+08:00

Wah lao.After common test I busy to the extreme I tell you.I thought after common test will be rather free till sep holiday.End up now so far from sep holiday still so busy.Cabal need to go fight nation war and guild war.Need go tuition.Need do homework.Need to do piles of things I really dun wanna name them olut.It make me more miserable.Parents nagging make me more miserable.

Here comes D-Day

2008-08-11T18:47:00.000+08:00

D-Day will arrive tomorow morning.What am I talking about.......Common test of course I guess I will be missing this blog till I am done with common test.Haiz.And I will be missing computer and freedom too.I hope I can be free of this endless sorrow of exam soon.But oh well just bear with it is all I need to do.

Catching up on sleep

2008-08-09T23:51:00.000+08:00

Last night watch olympic opening until like er...1.30am!!!!!!!!When I realize I was like...WTF!!!!!!!!!So late liao ar.Anyway all I did today is spent the morning tuition which is so freaking boring.Then spend the entire afternoon sleeping and my entire night time watching television I really felt like I didn't do much today